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reasons to stay alive

by in earnest

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John Ferguson This really is a step up again for this wonderful trio of musicians. Some serious themes but covered in gorgeous melodies and beautiful instrumental passages. Sarah's and Tom's haunting vocals, coupled with Toby's folk tinged instruments, incl his violin (fiddle!) of course, make for 23 minutes of essential listening. Just wait for the finale and then tell me this isn't a major piece of work! Favorite track: hands are tied.
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1.
i really believe i should have died last year missed the christmas lights, missed december cheer missed a whole lot of seasons come around again and all the days in between here's to the things i would've been without the taste of morning tea, one hundred and seventeen nights the unworn jeans laying on the bed and all the days in between i remember the night i had that dream there was nowhere else i'd rather be now there's nothing else i dearly need but those days in between we'd lose a bunch of stories to time my name lost in centuries of files when all that's left of me are crumbs i'd lose the dog walks in sunshine a day-by-day, long-term decline 'cause that's all we do until the reaper comes here's to the lost days i would've been without seeing my mother's pain, watching my old dog die a couple of nights spent in nyc and all the days in between i'd miss the way you take the load everytime i cry to abbey road now there's nothing else i dearly need but rising suns and air to breathe no there's nothing else i really need but those days in between
2.
this is where we both stand crawling, both knees, both hands die to undo the decomposing this isn't how we planned it living by the skin of our teeth swill the kitchen bleach to clutch a lifeline clean your insides i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not the castle seems far away it's rotting in a picture frame the couple there both share a name john doe and jane and how is he to tell her the thoughts he did invite that day to crash the car all just to feel nothing to feel something other than rage i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not to feel nothing to feel something to feel nothing to feel something i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not i feel alone even if i'm not
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humans 03:38
humans are so impulsive, they just don't think ferrying in and out of sunlight because someone else did add a pile to the mountain, subtract being able to see multiply eight billion that's what you're doing to me there's shadows in the water, suffocating our wondrous blue if every creature is only a number then so the fuck are you where's your own opinion? will you invite mother nature to dance? or take a sip of abandonment? cheers to you in advance what will you do? what will you do? what will you do? what will you do? an infant's draining cry, a mother's empty call a habitual melting pot, a walrus waterfall you choose to swim in a place where toxins leak there's fragments in your fish and chips - does it still taste clean? a whale song frequency, it's not wonderland bellies full of single-use washed up on the sand take a great big breath, can you smell the fossil fuels? noxious, reeking co2 in every molecule creatures of habit do things 'cause they're told the need for pasty flesh and bone has spun out of control please take me back to how it was before humans were not wasteful, rainforests didn't roar what will you do? what will you do? what will you do to save me?
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you are the lifeblood in my veins the only thing i have to save our time is too short for goodness' sake you are the grail in my arms hardly holy but that doesn't mean much you are the mother to both my dogs there's wreckage all around i can't stand to know at times i bring you down and the meds take all the blame i can't watch you drown, a deckchair in the rain this is a far cry from giving up waving the white flag when things get rough we'll learn to grow old with thicker blood there's wreckage all around i'll burn with you forever if i can't put it out and the worst is over now taming your black hound don't let it weigh you down my head is in my hands again keep your tether by your side there are reasons to stay alive there are reasons to stay alive there are reasons to stay alive
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i feel it all too much yet not at all facing a landslide, facing a wall don't debilitate, i'm just chasing the ball chasing the ball can't remember a thing but i remember how it feels how can i write a song when you've got the wheel? how can i, when my hands are tied? i want to turn all the pages and play all the keys visit all the places that you've ever been i want to track you down and finish you off because you constantly tell me i'm not good enough i need to walk the staircase but you're walking ahead i need some space but you're tracing my steps how can i, when my hands are tied? i carry the weight of a thousand books but don't know what page i'm on my friend said that i'll be okay turns out they were wrong i'm taking my pills, doing my time pour my heart out in a song the only thing i know is i don't think i can go on

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released October 8, 2021

All songs written & performed by in earnest:
Thomas Eatherton - vocals, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, synthesizer
Sarah Holburn - vocals, synthesizer, keys, piano
Toby Shaer - vocals, violin, acoustic guitar, whistle, gizouki, cittern, synthesizer

Recorded & mixed by Peter Waterman (Longcroft Recording)
Mastered by Katie Tavini

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in earnest Southend On Sea, UK

in earnest is fuelled by the songwriting of front-couple Sarah Holburn and Tom Eatherton in a bid to encourage conversation around mental health and other under-represented topics. Their sad indie noise is a dialogue from two perspectives featuring male and female vocals in turn. Hailing from Southend on Sea, UK, in earnest is made a trio by the inclusion of instrumentalist Toby Shaer. ... more

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